It has been said, 'time heals all wonds.' I do not agree.
The wounds reamin. In time, the mind,protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.

Monday, August 30, 2010

The cycle

At 0730hrs later when the alarm clock ring marks the start of the cycle
Will i make it?

Lots of unknown?
Re-run?
LDP?
Fence?
Work?
Hall?
Points?
GPA?
More moudles?

So much for living life on the edge

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

My aha moment?

Haven't be blogging for ages

Perhaps being too used to bottle up my emotions
Till now I am constantly unsure my current feelings

10 Days till Year 3 start

The long awaited holidays was burn in Special term, working, hall stuff, fencing training, YOG and all the random responsiblites that i held. Many say I was crazy to burn my holidays in such manner.But I am not sure if I should call myself crazy.... irony correct?

Perhaps my decision for special term got some link to the phrase that I added on the blog. In aid to protect my sanity, I have use all my various commitments to cover up the scars, but the truth is, it is always there. It will always be.

Then came August which I thought without special term I can take a break.But then I was quite wrong. The revision time was spent to clear all the other commitments that I have. And out of the suddenly, lately even watch movies/shows online doesn't help to keep me relax. What is really happening?

Helping out YOG as safety kayaker make me realise how much I love it. How much I love getting tan. How much I love getting sun burn. How much I love the sun, the sand, the sea. That perhaps I may love kayaking and sea sports more than fencing, or even engineering. To the extend that I have a sudden urge to be an outdoor instructor for my career.

Will this be my aha moment? Is it really worth it to give up everything I have now, for an outdoor career? Or should I continue studying? And use my free time to pursue my qualification in kayking,PPCDL, and other outdoor skills? But then again, there is only 24hours. I have to study to get good grades, work to support myself, CCA to get points to stay in hall, and probably sleep should also be on the list.

So much for living life on the edge.

aha moment: A moment of clarity, the aha moment is a defining moment where you gain your real wisdom - wisdom you can use to change your life