Down and Lost ...

I clearly know that am not running away from anything ...
I did my best i face my exams, my test, my failures and stupid monster ...
and in the end am lost am not sure what the heck am fighting for ....
Or rather perhaps for all that I do i will lose the battle in the end...

I won't worry my life away

So yup last term test was today.
Whatever done is done ...

Lots of things had happen lately ...
Battling a huge monster at the moment ...
(i call it the monster cause i dun wish others to worry)
I am totally not sure how long this battle is going to last ...
Not sure if i will win the monster ...

But ...

I WON'T WORRY MY LIFE AWAY!
LIVING EACH DAY AS IF IT IS THE LAST!

Perfection?

Maybe i guess no one ever hear this from me, but I FEELING STRESSED!

Actually seriously i don't know why am i working so hard to make ends meet.

I’m tired. I’m sick of doing well.
I dont feel good when i do well, i feel complied to do it.
As if its a norm for me do well.

My mind is tired and my morale is low.
People depend on me so much, and i really want to depend on them to help me.

Can i just give up now?
I reallly have no energy to go on ...
But i cant find a perfect reason for giving up.
It just a few months away from graduation and hopefully getting to uni and a scholarship.

Ah.......................