1st Semester Results
Everyone around me tell me is pretty good grades. But, to me, I know I screwed up. I didn't study as hard as I supposed. Tutorial and revision was only done at the last minute which are totally unacceptable! And I totally deserve the C+ for a paper I studied for 2.5 days. Whatever it is, no more excuses should be made, what done is done. Everything will change next semester! No more Cs! More As! And yes i will get my cgpa above 4!
University Life
I guess after coming to uni things change a lot. I tried a lot of new things, bowling, kbox, fencing, late night supper/running/cylcing/meetings etc. Hall life is encriching but also busy since i joined JCRC. Staying in hall also allow me to know that am sort of a loner. But I guess is because of my various commitments. And am not that smart and have to put in time to revise each night. And it very true that if we don't play now, after we start working we won't get the chance.
We spend our 3rd chirstmas back viewing chirstmas lights and the new year eve with a simple lunch and movie. 2009, is also a year we agreed to try and develop further.
2009 was a year i transit from poly to uni. In uni, life was a roller coaster ride, many a times at night when am totally drained out or the quiet nights on weekends and public holidays that I really wanted to give up, but living through the hectic crazy semester 1 gives me motivation to try and survive the next! May everyone wishes come true, and Happy 2010!
At this very moment, in a quiet night at hall, the question on my mind is this:
School + JCRC + Fencing + Leadership Development Program + Work + NCC = ????
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Holidays drained out
Yup, it holidays.
But am feeling super drain out.
IHG clashes with fencing and clashes with project meeting
IHG - need to be there to play sports/rec even at the last min
Fencing - competition coming up in january, but with unable to go for training this week, how do i improve in my skills?
Project meeting - 8 people, limited budget, for a good project
How am i suppose to cope?
Seriously not understanding what is holidays when you sleep the same hours as school days.
But am feeling super drain out.
IHG clashes with fencing and clashes with project meeting
IHG - need to be there to play sports/rec even at the last min
Fencing - competition coming up in january, but with unable to go for training this week, how do i improve in my skills?
Project meeting - 8 people, limited budget, for a good project
How am i suppose to cope?
Seriously not understanding what is holidays when you sleep the same hours as school days.
Friday, December 25, 2009
X'mas 09
3rd X'mas spend with you
Thanks for the nice dinner and the stroll through the chirstmas lightining
Hope you had an enjoyable night too.
X'mas this year was spend sleep more and working
Sometime i wonder what else do i do in life ...
Thanks for the nice dinner and the stroll through the chirstmas lightining
Hope you had an enjoyable night too.
X'mas this year was spend sleep more and working
Sometime i wonder what else do i do in life ...
Monday, November 30, 2009
3.5 possible?
Last entry was in august.
That was like around 3-4 months ago.
Exam period now
Hell week this week ...
3 papers...
1 down today
Totally screwed
Not sure who to talk to
Or rather the group of my friends all suddenly have the change of concept of passing the exams will do
But I can't have that thinking
Very afraid, very afraid that i won't even meet 3.5
Very afraid that i will not get to continue my wavier
That was like around 3-4 months ago.
Exam period now
Hell week this week ...
3 papers...
1 down today
Totally screwed
Not sure who to talk to
Or rather the group of my friends all suddenly have the change of concept of passing the exams will do
But I can't have that thinking
Very afraid, very afraid that i won't even meet 3.5
Very afraid that i will not get to continue my wavier
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Limit?
What is one's limit?
Is there really such thing as limit in studies, feelings etc... ?
2 weeks into uni and i all i can say is life is quite hectic
lecture, tutorial, hall life, fencing, work
Maybe just maybe I am putting too much of things on my plate.
With what happen last night am sort of quite sure my tolerance level is quite low lately
Maybe it is the right time that i should give up
Not sure why i blog suddenly in the middle of preparing for tutorial
Perhaps maybe writing them out it can help clear my mind
Is there really such thing as limit in studies, feelings etc... ?
2 weeks into uni and i all i can say is life is quite hectic
lecture, tutorial, hall life, fencing, work
Maybe just maybe I am putting too much of things on my plate.
With what happen last night am sort of quite sure my tolerance level is quite low lately
Maybe it is the right time that i should give up
Not sure why i blog suddenly in the middle of preparing for tutorial
Perhaps maybe writing them out it can help clear my mind
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Don't know what is wrong lately...
Friday was my last day of work and I have been thinking a lot
Uni matters, family matters, money matters.
I always say perserverance is the answer and the sky is my limit always. Don't understand why am losing my positive self so often lately. In fact too often that am afriad i might not be able to cope with everything that is going to come in my way when uni starts. Even have the impluse decision to work full time and withdraw from uni.
Is my life statements really working? Or am I lying to everyone so that others don't worry for me?
Friday was my last day of work and I have been thinking a lot
Uni matters, family matters, money matters.
I always say perserverance is the answer and the sky is my limit always. Don't understand why am losing my positive self so often lately. In fact too often that am afriad i might not be able to cope with everything that is going to come in my way when uni starts. Even have the impluse decision to work full time and withdraw from uni.
Is my life statements really working? Or am I lying to everyone so that others don't worry for me?
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Ubin Escape
1 day 1 night
Cycled
Stargazed at night
Mesmerising Sunrise
Multiple injures
Cycling at ubin make me realise is like life
There is always up and down slope
The up is hard and tiring but the down is exciting, and this cycle goes on
Fell badly while cycling in the rain
And all i did was to pick myself up and cycle on
And this make me realise is what I have been doing my whole life
Turning dissapointment into motivation
Losing this skills now is really not worth it
And the mesmerising sunrise make me feel that there is always hope in life
As long as I persevere on!
Cycled
Stargazed at night
Mesmerising Sunrise
Multiple injures
Cycling at ubin make me realise is like life
There is always up and down slope
The up is hard and tiring but the down is exciting, and this cycle goes on
Fell badly while cycling in the rain
And all i did was to pick myself up and cycle on
And this make me realise is what I have been doing my whole life
Turning dissapointment into motivation
Losing this skills now is really not worth it
And the mesmerising sunrise make me feel that there is always hope in life
As long as I persevere on!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Argh
Seem that I wasn’t my usual self at office the past 2 days
Keep making mistakes the past 2 days
Even my boss ask me why I look so sick
Ear infection seem to be getting better
Appeal to aerospace fail.
Should I start taking better care of myself?
Should I work all the way till university starts?
Is university really what I want to do now?
How hard am I willing to work in university?
The way I did in polytechnic? Then what next?
Aerospace or others?
Why everyone around me say I will survive everything?
I still find it very amazing that others know I will survive
They seem to just know I will
But I am just getting more tired and lost everyday
Keep making mistakes the past 2 days
Even my boss ask me why I look so sick
Ear infection seem to be getting better
Appeal to aerospace fail.
Should I start taking better care of myself?
Should I work all the way till university starts?
Is university really what I want to do now?
How hard am I willing to work in university?
The way I did in polytechnic? Then what next?
Aerospace or others?
Why everyone around me say I will survive everything?
I still find it very amazing that others know I will survive
They seem to just know I will
But I am just getting more tired and lost everyday
Thursday, June 18, 2009
the Dip
I was reading the book 'the dip' by Seth Godin.
There is this question at the conclusion of the book that got me thinking a lot:
'Is the pain of the dip worth the benefit of the light at the end of the tunnel?'
Which is similar to the questions i have on my mind lately...
Is working all the way till uni be good?
Do my body and mind need a break? or is the workaholic perfectionist me coming back?
Would the money (light at the end of tunnel) i earn from my job now be enough?
Is pushing myself through uni to achieve good grades be worth it in the end?
I guess the last question is the most important one at this crossroad i am facing.
If it scares you, it might be a good thing to try.
There is this question at the conclusion of the book that got me thinking a lot:
'Is the pain of the dip worth the benefit of the light at the end of the tunnel?'
Which is similar to the questions i have on my mind lately...
Is working all the way till uni be good?
Do my body and mind need a break? or is the workaholic perfectionist me coming back?
Would the money (light at the end of tunnel) i earn from my job now be enough?
Is pushing myself through uni to achieve good grades be worth it in the end?
I guess the last question is the most important one at this crossroad i am facing.
If it scares you, it might be a good thing to try.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Perseverance is the answer!
20th May 2009 - TP Graduation Cermony
After the event, my emotions when on a downward roller coaster ride that lasted a few days
Looking at the medal i got for being 3rd in my cohort automatically brings tears flowing out my eyes ... but as time past i finally saw the motivation it brings ...
Hope it continue to bring me motivation in uni to achieve my goals...
My sincere thanks to all who help me through my polytechnic education.
Having a fix working hour allow me to have more sleep
Think my body have not really recover from the fatigue that is inflicted during the past 3 years
Was quite amaze that for a few weeks after graduation cermony i could sleep at around 8pm after i work
If life is smooth sailing I won't learn
Each cross road of our life we learn something new
And i learn persverance is the answer to everything...
There are many ways to get to one dreams ... regardless which road I take am going to hang on!
And it is true that 'Out of difficulties make miracles!'
Waiting for:
- Appeal results
- Uni Admission package
- CAAS results
- The call for a scholarship interview
After the event, my emotions when on a downward roller coaster ride that lasted a few days
Looking at the medal i got for being 3rd in my cohort automatically brings tears flowing out my eyes ... but as time past i finally saw the motivation it brings ...
Hope it continue to bring me motivation in uni to achieve my goals...
My sincere thanks to all who help me through my polytechnic education.
Having a fix working hour allow me to have more sleep
Think my body have not really recover from the fatigue that is inflicted during the past 3 years
Was quite amaze that for a few weeks after graduation cermony i could sleep at around 8pm after i work
If life is smooth sailing I won't learn
Each cross road of our life we learn something new
And i learn persverance is the answer to everything...
There are many ways to get to one dreams ... regardless which road I take am going to hang on!
And it is true that 'Out of difficulties make miracles!'
Waiting for:
- Appeal results
- Uni Admission package
- CAAS results
- The call for a scholarship interview
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Newspaper Delivery Person Theroy
Doing door to door flyer distribution temp job this week
Work from 0620 - 1200.
Is early, is hardwork but I am sure I can make it
My boss was saying this:
If you hire a newspaper delivery person who wakes up super early to distribute newspaper, you can bet approximately 100% the person can be trusted.
(i wonder this is true... )
This few days also starting to feel like those weeks during my last poly exam
Go work, go home study, Sleep 4-5hrs each night
But i guess I will hang on as I don't think there is other road to walk at this moment
Work from 0620 - 1200.
Is early, is hardwork but I am sure I can make it
My boss was saying this:
If you hire a newspaper delivery person who wakes up super early to distribute newspaper, you can bet approximately 100% the person can be trusted.
(i wonder this is true... )
This few days also starting to feel like those weeks during my last poly exam
Go work, go home study, Sleep 4-5hrs each night
But i guess I will hang on as I don't think there is other road to walk at this moment
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Alone
I guess for a person like me
Who doesn't know when I will be leaving
It's still better to live life alone
Face everything alone
Rather then becoming a burden for someone else
Who doesn't know when I will be leaving
It's still better to live life alone
Face everything alone
Rather then becoming a burden for someone else
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Engine restarted ...
I guess i fallen into a black hole ever since i came back from taiwan, camp, few overnight work
Guess was seriously sleep deprive that the past few night i hallucinate my parents were around
Lol... really didn't realise lack of sleep could have driven my crazy
But am back on my feet, slept 8 hours last night, really slept well
And i got my engine restarted today to start my CAAS revision
Just praying my engine will run well till CAAS exams are over
Think it will be the same concept, 'I will sleep all i want after CAAS exams', lol
I got a letter from school yesterday, telling me i would be receiving dipolma with merit
In the 3 years, i acheive 15 Distinction, 11 A, 4 B+, 5 Pass and a cummulative gpa of 3.96 / 4
I guess it is good result bah
Guess was seriously sleep deprive that the past few night i hallucinate my parents were around
Lol... really didn't realise lack of sleep could have driven my crazy
But am back on my feet, slept 8 hours last night, really slept well
And i got my engine restarted today to start my CAAS revision
Just praying my engine will run well till CAAS exams are over
Think it will be the same concept, 'I will sleep all i want after CAAS exams', lol
I got a letter from school yesterday, telling me i would be receiving dipolma with merit
In the 3 years, i acheive 15 Distinction, 11 A, 4 B+, 5 Pass and a cummulative gpa of 3.96 / 4
I guess it is good result bah
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Doubt
Just ended camp about an hour ago
Yet now am about to leave for work
Not sure if this is the only way to drain my energy out
So that i won't have nightmares
Not sure if i need to be this tired so that i can sleep
Not sure if i can hang on till the end
But nobody knows
They only see the mask i wear everyday
The cheerful side of me
Yet now am about to leave for work
Not sure if this is the only way to drain my energy out
So that i won't have nightmares
Not sure if i need to be this tired so that i can sleep
Not sure if i can hang on till the end
But nobody knows
They only see the mask i wear everyday
The cheerful side of me
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Final Semester Exams Over!!
Final semester exams are over yesterday...
Seriously the past one month i really don't know how i got through
Projects, Reports, Quiz, Presenation, Lack of sleep, etc.
Perhaps is the thought of being able to sleep 48 hrs after my last paper that got me through
(in fact only slept 8 hours last night after my last paper)
Praying hard that i did not screw that badly on any of my papers *Finger cross*
Sort of hard to write what i did last month, as i also really cannot remember, it just went by in a flash
What next?
CAAS Examination in April 2009 (date not out yet)
5 MCQ paper and 1 essay papers, held at changi airport
The upcoming one month would be reading and re-reading MCQ database
Guess the real holidays and finding of a proper temporarily job will only come in after the CAAS exams...
Seriously the past one month i really don't know how i got through
Projects, Reports, Quiz, Presenation, Lack of sleep, etc.
Perhaps is the thought of being able to sleep 48 hrs after my last paper that got me through
(in fact only slept 8 hours last night after my last paper)
Praying hard that i did not screw that badly on any of my papers *Finger cross*
Sort of hard to write what i did last month, as i also really cannot remember, it just went by in a flash
What next?
CAAS Examination in April 2009 (date not out yet)
5 MCQ paper and 1 essay papers, held at changi airport
The upcoming one month would be reading and re-reading MCQ database
Guess the real holidays and finding of a proper temporarily job will only come in after the CAAS exams...
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Hiatus
There's too much going on right now, i hope you understand.
The ship am on is about to sink...
The ship am on is about to sink...
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