19th Birthday

Just felt that i should blog today ...
Just to mark the day ...

Didn't do much today ...
Went school for 3 lectures and aerodynamic quiz 1
Ya... i screw my quiz ..and i won't be getting full marks ...

Didn't wanted to celebrate my birthday this year ...
Really wasn't in the mood to do it ...
Really feel like give up now ...
But is it worth it giving up when i am so close?

Upcoming:
7 days to Gas Turbine Engine Quiz
11 days to Term Test
19 days to LTT re-exam and Traffic Police Test

Realisation

I find my mind quite slow lately ...
To the point it was only when i was waiting for my bus home today from school
That i realise I have too much to lose if i fail/ drop a grade for my subjects
GPA ...
Chances of getting into uni or even a scholarship ...
It is just too much for me to give up now ...

I really have to hang on.... hope i have the strength and wisdom to be there and achieve what i need to

5 days to higher engineering math quiz 2
7 days to Aerodynamic quiz 1

I got score well for my math ... i need that motivation ...
I cannot do badly for aerodynamic quiz ... it will screw up my gpa ...
I just cannot screw up ...

I know I lost it

I lost it
I lost my motivation in studies
I lost my confidence in studies
Couldn't sleep well lately
Slept about 4 hrs last night

Am not sure what happen
Counldn't get myself to mug harder

I know I know is my last semsester
Screwing up now is stupied

Approx,
1 week to Higher math quiz 2 and Aerodynamic quiz 1
2 weeks to Gas turbine engine quiz 1
3 weeks to term test

I need to get myself up and running soon ....

Decisions

I getting sick of making decisions
Drop or Don't drop higher math?
Retake LTT?
Contiune to Work?

Giving up seems to be the easier way out ...
I dun know ...
But i also don't want to give up just now ...