Perseverance is the answer!

2010/2011 in review

2010-12-31T10:26:00.003+08:00

2010 passed by super quickly. I re-run for JCRC. I studied hard but still didn't perform and my GPA drop. Receive my 1st warning letter for my scholarship. Semester holiday burned like hell. But I think I make the right decision. University shouldn't just be about studying. A balance lifestyle is a must. My only regret was I didn't leave for the overseas research opportunity.

Then came 2011. 6 months attachment life was blissful. I learn a lot more about human factors and psychology and found out what I truely want to do in life. Only problem is my GPA is not good enough and I might not secure my dream job. But I guess I will not give up trying. If you are passionate about something you will hang on no matter what.

Year 4 Semester 1 started in August 2011. Handling over my JCRC duties I was free like a bird. More time to study, more time to sleep, more time to pursue my hobbies. Having more time to study resulted in better grades. The semester gpa was approximately the same as the first semester I entered university. Althought it is mathematically impossible for me to graduate with a 2nd upper but I think I should do my best to at least graduate with a 2nd lower and pray my dream job hired me.

It is also this semester where I attempt to pursue my Minor in Psychology. Till date I still think I enjoy my psychology classes much more than my engineering courses. Hopefully in 2012 I will graduate and get into my dream job.

The cycle

2010-08-30T02:04:00.003+08:00

At 0730hrs later when the alarm clock ring marks the start of the cycle
Will i make it?

Lots of unknown?
Re-run?
LDP?
Fence?
Work?
Hall?
Points?
GPA?
More moudles?

So much for living life on the edge

My aha moment?

2010-08-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

Haven't be blogging for ages

Perhaps being too used to bottle up my emotions
Till now I am constantly unsure my current feelings

10 Days till Year 3 start

The long awaited holidays was burn in Special term, working, hall stuff, fencing training, YOG and all the random responsiblites that i held. Many say I was crazy to burn my holidays in such manner.But I am not sure if I should call myself crazy.... irony correct?

Perhaps my decision for special term got some link to the phrase that I added on the blog. In aid to protect my sanity, I have use all my various commitments to cover up the scars, but the truth is, it is always there. It will always be.

Then came August which I thought without special term I can take a break.But then I was quite wrong. The revision time was spent to clear all the other commitments that I have. And out of the suddenly, lately even watch movies/shows online doesn't help to keep me relax. What is really happening?

Helping out YOG as safety kayaker make me realise how much I love it. How much I love getting tan. How much I love getting sun burn. How much I love the sun, the sand, the sea. That perhaps I may love kayaking and sea sports more than fencing, or even engineering. To the extend that I have a sudden urge to be an outdoor instructor for my career.

Will this be my aha moment? Is it really worth it to give up everything I have now, for an outdoor career? Or should I continue studying? And use my free time to pursue my qualification in kayking,PPCDL, and other outdoor skills? But then again, there is only 24hours. I have to study to get good grades, work to support myself, CCA to get points to stay in hall, and probably sleep should also be on the list.

So much for living life on the edge.

aha moment: A moment of clarity, the aha moment is a defining moment where you gain your real wisdom - wisdom you can use to change your life

Week 2!

2010-01-25T02:33:00.001+08:00

Year 2 Semester 2 Week 2 down!

Approx 2 plus in the morning and I am still awake
Stupid web assisgnment causing insomina...
Past 2 weeks been hectic
Week 3 (this week) will be hell ...
Monster is back as well...
So is the random nightmares each night ...

Tired ... real tired ...

random post that may not make sense

1st Semester Holidays

2010-01-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

A total of 35 days of holidays
Shall take this chance to write a bit since semester 2 starts on monday

KL Trip
Went with some JCRC member
Had lots of fun
Try new things like bowling, mid-night movie, multiple rollercoaster ride
Things that I won't normally get to do when school semester starts

IHG
Super long IHG that is going to drag till late feb
Played hockey, carrom and weiqi
Hockey a test of your running limits and shooting accuracy
Carrom a battle of luck, endurance and skills
Weiqi a game of no mistakes allowed

Fencing
My love defintely
Take it away from me, I think i will be a super dull person
I guess when school starts, i will look forward to all my training time
Hopefuly event don't clash and I can attend all my training
Need to train hard and acheive better skills

EID
Stupid project that has no good progress lately =(
Sometimes i wonder if i had did my best as the leader

Moives
Watch quite a lot of movies this holidays, which is something i don't usually do
Ninja Assassins
New Moon
Bodyguards and Assassins
Sherlock Holmes

Next Semester
25 AUs
6 Examinable
1 Project Based
1 Lab Based
1 EID
JCRC
Fencing
LDP
Work
Really, seriously hope i can get through all this.

p/s: there will be much less entries as school semester starts

2010!

2010-01-01T19:03:00.003+08:00

I slept the whole of the first day of new year
Woke up to a raining evening
Braved the rain to get some dinner from can 2
Not sure why am so tired
running nose has stop, while throat starts to hurt
Praying hard am not falling sick soon
Really don't have the time to fall sick

2010 Goals:
1. cpga >4.0, and into 2nd upper class
2. Greater mental, physical and emotion strength to deal with school, JCRC, Fencing, LDP,NCC and work when school starts.

2009 in review!

2009-12-31T21:13:00.003+08:00

1st Semester Results
Everyone around me tell me is pretty good grades. But, to me, I know I screwed up. I didn't study as hard as I supposed. Tutorial and revision was only done at the last minute which are totally unacceptable! And I totally deserve the C+ for a paper I studied for 2.5 days. Whatever it is, no more excuses should be made, what done is done. Everything will change next semester! No more Cs! More As! And yes i will get my cgpa above 4!

University Life
I guess after coming to uni things change a lot. I tried a lot of new things, bowling, kbox, fencing, late night supper/running/cylcing/meetings etc. Hall life is encriching but also busy since i joined JCRC. Staying in hall also allow me to know that am sort of a loner. But I guess is because of my various commitments. And am not that smart and have to put in time to revise each night. And it very true that if we don't play now, after we start working we won't get the chance.

We spend our 3rd chirstmas back viewing chirstmas lights and the new year eve with a simple lunch and movie. 2009, is also a year we agreed to try and develop further.

2009 was a year i transit from poly to uni. In uni, life was a roller coaster ride, many a times at night when am totally drained out or the quiet nights on weekends and public holidays that I really wanted to give up, but living through the hectic crazy semester 1 gives me motivation to try and survive the next! May everyone wishes come true, and Happy 2010!

At this very moment, in a quiet night at hall, the question on my mind is this:
School + JCRC + Fencing + Leadership Development Program + Work + NCC = ????

Holidays drained out

2009-12-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

Yup, it holidays.
But am feeling super drain out.
IHG clashes with fencing and clashes with project meeting

IHG - need to be there to play sports/rec even at the last min
Fencing - competition coming up in january, but with unable to go for training this week, how do i improve in my skills?
Project meeting - 8 people, limited budget, for a good project

How am i suppose to cope?
Seriously not understanding what is holidays when you sleep the same hours as school days.

X'mas 09

2009-12-25T02:07:00.002+08:00

3rd X'mas spend with you
Thanks for the nice dinner and the stroll through the chirstmas lightining
Hope you had an enjoyable night too.

X'mas this year was spend sleep more and working
Sometime i wonder what else do i do in life ...

3.5 possible?

2009-11-30T18:26:00.003+08:00

Last entry was in august.
That was like around 3-4 months ago.

Exam period now
Hell week this week ...
3 papers...
1 down today
Totally screwed

Not sure who to talk to
Or rather the group of my friends all suddenly have the change of concept of passing the exams will do
But I can't have that thinking
Very afraid, very afraid that i won't even meet 3.5
Very afraid that i will not get to continue my wavier

Limit?

2009-08-23T14:49:00.003+08:00

What is one's limit?
Is there really such thing as limit in studies, feelings etc... ?

2 weeks into uni and i all i can say is life is quite hectic
lecture, tutorial, hall life, fencing, work
Maybe just maybe I am putting too much of things on my plate.

With what happen last night am sort of quite sure my tolerance level is quite low lately
Maybe it is the right time that i should give up

Not sure why i blog suddenly in the middle of preparing for tutorial
Perhaps maybe writing them out it can help clear my mind

2009-08-02T20:14:00.003+08:00

Don't know what is wrong lately...
Friday was my last day of work and I have been thinking a lot
Uni matters, family matters, money matters.

I always say perserverance is the answer and the sky is my limit always. Don't understand why am losing my positive self so often lately. In fact too often that am afriad i might not be able to cope with everything that is going to come in my way when uni starts. Even have the impluse decision to work full time and withdraw from uni.

Is my life statements really working? Or am I lying to everyone so that others don't worry for me?

Ubin Escape

2009-07-05T15:59:00.002+08:00

1 day 1 night
Cycled
Stargazed at night
Mesmerising Sunrise
Multiple injures

Cycling at ubin make me realise is like life
There is always up and down slope
The up is hard and tiring but the down is exciting, and this cycle goes on
Fell badly while cycling in the rain
And all i did was to pick myself up and cycle on
And this make me realise is what I have been doing my whole life
Turning dissapointment into motivation
Losing this skills now is really not worth it

And the mesmerising sunrise make me feel that there is always hope in life
As long as I persevere on!

Argh

2009-06-27T21:54:00.001+08:00

Seem that I wasn’t my usual self at office the past 2 days
Keep making mistakes the past 2 days
Even my boss ask me why I look so sick
Ear infection seem to be getting better
Appeal to aerospace fail.

Should I start taking better care of myself?
Should I work all the way till university starts?
Is university really what I want to do now?
How hard am I willing to work in university?
The way I did in polytechnic? Then what next?
Aerospace or others?

Why everyone around me say I will survive everything?
I still find it very amazing that others know I will survive
They seem to just know I will
But I am just getting more tired and lost everyday

the Dip

2009-06-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

I was reading the book 'the dip' by Seth Godin.
There is this question at the conclusion of the book that got me thinking a lot:
'Is the pain of the dip worth the benefit of the light at the end of the tunnel?'

Which is similar to the questions i have on my mind lately...
Is working all the way till uni be good?
Do my body and mind need a break? or is the workaholic perfectionist me coming back?
Would the money (light at the end of tunnel) i earn from my job now be enough?

Is pushing myself through uni to achieve good grades be worth it in the end?
I guess the last question is the most important one at this crossroad i am facing.

If it scares you, it might be a good thing to try.

Perseverance is the answer!

2009-06-05T20:37:00.002+08:00

20th May 2009 - TP Graduation Cermony
After the event, my emotions when on a downward roller coaster ride that lasted a few days
Looking at the medal i got for being 3rd in my cohort automatically brings tears flowing out my eyes ... but as time past i finally saw the motivation it brings ...
Hope it continue to bring me motivation in uni to achieve my goals...
My sincere thanks to all who help me through my polytechnic education.

Having a fix working hour allow me to have more sleep
Think my body have not really recover from the fatigue that is inflicted during the past 3 years
Was quite amaze that for a few weeks after graduation cermony i could sleep at around 8pm after i work

If life is smooth sailing I won't learn
Each cross road of our life we learn something new
And i learn persverance is the answer to everything...
There are many ways to get to one dreams ... regardless which road I take am going to hang on!
And it is true that 'Out of difficulties make miracles!'

Waiting for:
- Appeal results
- Uni Admission package
- CAAS results
- The call for a scholarship interview

2009-05-05T09:12:00.001+08:00

但當你已没有明天，试问又如何为明天奋斗呢？

Newspaper Delivery Person Theroy

2009-03-31T21:05:00.003+08:00

Doing door to door flyer distribution temp job this week
Work from 0620 - 1200.
Is early, is hardwork but I am sure I can make it

My boss was saying this:
If you hire a newspaper delivery person who wakes up super early to distribute newspaper, you can bet approximately 100% the person can be trusted.
(i wonder this is true... )

This few days also starting to feel like those weeks during my last poly exam
Go work, go home study, Sleep 4-5hrs each night
But i guess I will hang on as I don't think there is other road to walk at this moment

Alone

2009-03-24T13:47:00.004+08:00

I guess for a person like me
Who doesn't know when I will be leaving
It's still better to live life alone
Face everything alone
Rather then becoming a burden for someone else

Engine restarted ...

2009-03-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

I guess i fallen into a black hole ever since i came back from taiwan, camp, few overnight work
Guess was seriously sleep deprive that the past few night i hallucinate my parents were around
Lol... really didn't realise lack of sleep could have driven my crazy

But am back on my feet, slept 8 hours last night, really slept well
And i got my engine restarted today to start my CAAS revision
Just praying my engine will run well till CAAS exams are over
Think it will be the same concept, 'I will sleep all i want after CAAS exams', lol

I got a letter from school yesterday, telling me i would be receiving dipolma with merit
In the 3 years, i acheive 15 Distinction, 11 A, 4 B+, 5 Pass and a cummulative gpa of 3.96 / 4
I guess it is good result bah

Doubt

2009-03-15T16:35:00.001+08:00

Just ended camp about an hour ago
Yet now am about to leave for work
Not sure if this is the only way to drain my energy out
So that i won't have nightmares
Not sure if i need to be this tired so that i can sleep
Not sure if i can hang on till the end
But nobody knows
They only see the mask i wear everyday
The cheerful side of me

Final Semester Exams Over!!

2009-02-28T23:25:00.003+08:00

Final semester exams are over yesterday...

Seriously the past one month i really don't know how i got through
Projects, Reports, Quiz, Presenation, Lack of sleep, etc.
Perhaps is the thought of being able to sleep 48 hrs after my last paper that got me through
(in fact only slept 8 hours last night after my last paper)
Praying hard that i did not screw that badly on any of my papers *Finger cross*

Sort of hard to write what i did last month, as i also really cannot remember, it just went by in a flash

What next?
CAAS Examination in April 2009 (date not out yet)
5 MCQ paper and 1 essay papers, held at changi airport
The upcoming one month would be reading and re-reading MCQ database

Guess the real holidays and finding of a proper temporarily job will only come in after the CAAS exams...

Hiatus

2009-01-20T01:56:00.002+08:00

There's too much going on right now, i hope you understand.
The ship am on is about to sink...

Down and Lost ...

2008-12-18T16:47:00.001+08:00

I clearly know that am not running away from anything ...
I did my best i face my exams, my test, my failures and stupid monster ...
and in the end am lost am not sure what the heck am fighting for ....
Or rather perhaps for all that I do i will lose the battle in the end...

I won't worry my life away

2008-12-13T00:12:00.002+08:00

So yup last term test was today.
Whatever done is done ...

Lots of things had happen lately ...
Battling a huge monster at the moment ...
(i call it the monster cause i dun wish others to worry)
I am totally not sure how long this battle is going to last ...
Not sure if i will win the monster ...

But ...

I WON'T WORRY MY LIFE AWAY!
LIVING EACH DAY AS IF IT IS THE LAST!

Perfection?

2008-12-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

Maybe i guess no one ever hear this from me, but I FEELING STRESSED!

Actually seriously i don't know why am i working so hard to make ends meet.

I’m tired. I’m sick of doing well.
I dont feel good when i do well, i feel complied to do it.
As if its a norm for me do well.

My mind is tired and my morale is low.
People depend on me so much, and i really want to depend on them to help me.

Can i just give up now?
I reallly have no energy to go on ...
But i cant find a perfect reason for giving up.
It just a few months away from graduation and hopefully getting to uni and a scholarship.

Ah.......................

19th Birthday

2008-11-27T18:26:00.003+08:00

Just felt that i should blog today ...
Just to mark the day ...

Didn't do much today ...
Went school for 3 lectures and aerodynamic quiz 1
Ya... i screw my quiz ..and i won't be getting full marks ...

Didn't wanted to celebrate my birthday this year ...
Really wasn't in the mood to do it ...
Really feel like give up now ...
But is it worth it giving up when i am so close?

Upcoming:
7 days to Gas Turbine Engine Quiz
11 days to Term Test
19 days to LTT re-exam and Traffic Police Test

Realisation

2008-11-19T19:26:00.002+08:00

I find my mind quite slow lately ...
To the point it was only when i was waiting for my bus home today from school
That i realise I have too much to lose if i fail/ drop a grade for my subjects
GPA ...
Chances of getting into uni or even a scholarship ...
It is just too much for me to give up now ...

I really have to hang on.... hope i have the strength and wisdom to be there and achieve what i need to

5 days to higher engineering math quiz 2
7 days to Aerodynamic quiz 1

I got score well for my math ... i need that motivation ...
I cannot do badly for aerodynamic quiz ... it will screw up my gpa ...
I just cannot screw up ...

I know I lost it

2008-11-16T09:01:00.002+08:00

I lost it
I lost my motivation in studies
I lost my confidence in studies
Couldn't sleep well lately
Slept about 4 hrs last night

Am not sure what happen
Counldn't get myself to mug harder

I know I know is my last semsester
Screwing up now is stupied

Approx,
1 week to Higher math quiz 2 and Aerodynamic quiz 1
2 weeks to Gas turbine engine quiz 1
3 weeks to term test

I need to get myself up and running soon ....

Decisions

2008-11-06T20:19:00.002+08:00

I getting sick of making decisions
Drop or Don't drop higher math?
Retake LTT?
Contiune to Work?

Giving up seems to be the easier way out ...
I dun know ...
But i also don't want to give up just now ...

Efficiency. Goals. Purpose.

2008-10-26T10:33:00.003+08:00

Once my lecturer told me, 'What matters is what you achieve at the end, the process is just there to be enjoyed'. Starting to wonder what i had been doing for the past 2 1/2 year in poly, the mugging and the fun i had with my coursemates. True, i may not what holds after this last sememster or perhaps i might just screw up my GPA.

But i guess if i put my heart and mind to my studies things should turn out just find, no point worrying about the efficiency of the path we take in life.

"Sucess favours the prepared mind" << this happens always just like Murphy's Law.

First taste of Higher Engineering Math

2008-10-24T23:28:00.001+08:00

As the tittle says, i attempted my higher engineering math tutorial
Just 2 section of my 1st tutorial ...
My mind is totally drain ...

Guess a 1 year break from math didn't really help much ...

3rd day of year 3.2

2008-10-22T17:46:00.002+08:00

Today i didn't go school
Instead went to T2 to take my CAAS M6 & M7 paper
Finally they are over ...

Ok, so i had a pretty stressful higher engineering math lecture yesterday...
Got to seriously think through whether i should take the subject or not

Got lots of things this semester
Still have some other CAAS paper they i would be taking at the end of the year
Also have to manage LTT re-take exam (if i fail, which i had a feeling i did) ...
Then got Aerodynamic, Human Factor, Air Law, Career Communication, Gas Turbrine Engine and then Higher Engineering Math.
Haiz... wonder if i will survive...

But if i believe i would, i would.
"If i put my mind to it, i can do almost anything"

Last day of Holiday

2008-10-19T22:16:00.003+08:00

So yup... today will be the end of my last day of 1 wk break
Felt as if i didn't really rested well
Sort of having insomia, been waking up at around 6-7 am every morning no matter how late i slept
But is ok ... i should be fine

Tomorrow will be my 1st day of my last semester at TP
I wonder how is like to go back a be a normal student after the rountine 8.30am - 4pm life for the past six months

Subject to be taken: (6 in total)

Career Communication
Applied Principles for Effective Living 3
Aviation Legislation and Human Factors
Gas Turbine Engine
Basic Aerodynamics
Higher Engineering Math

141008:Holiday Day 5

2008-10-14T17:52:00.002+08:00

As seen above, mugging in progess.

7 days till CAAS paper...

Time really files.

Holdiays been burnt

Work. Revision. Work. Revision. Work. Revision

I will always remember:

"Sucess Favours the prepared Mind"

09/10/08: LTT Day 125

2008-10-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah !
Today is the day 125 of LTT...
Hopefully i pass my exams ...
And hopefully i will pass CAAS exams in a week time ...

1 week break here i come ...
Excepting a lot of time doing revision ...

28/09/08: 10 more days

2008-09-28T15:12:00.002+08:00

10 more days till LTT M6/M7 examination
Seriously got to buck up and start muggging harder
About 8 more official training days till my training is over

8 OCT 08 the fateful day
Where i will sit for my LTT M6/M7 Examination
150 MCQ
2 ESSAY QNS

Will i make it?

HOPE

2008-09-20T20:41:00.002+08:00

As long as there is DREAM there is HOPE
As long as there is HOPE there is JOY IN LIVING
We should always DARE TO DREAM and DREAM BIG.

Will i acheive my dreams?
Will i survive just by eating bread?

If i put my mind to it, i can do almost anything!

06/09/08: 23 days of training left

2008-09-06T08:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was day 102.
So 23 days of official training left.
It is the last lap...
However i felt am not ready for me exams in october
Seriously...
= (

05/08/08: 3rd Hand Project

2008-08-05T19:10:00.005+08:00

I did it...
I manage to complete my 3rd Hand Project ..
Felt a sense of accomplishment when i install my 3rd hand
What is left is waiting for grading...
Hopefully i get good grades *prays*

Presenting you my 3rd Hand :

I don't why lately i became very quiet
Maybe just want quiet moment
I hope, seriously hope am not blocking everyone out of my world
Especially with things at home in a mess on my plate

Went out for an evening run just now
Really felt refresh....
Ok, revision here i come...

03/08/08: 47 days left in training

2008-08-03T11:27:00.002+08:00

As the tittle says is the last lap of my training
47 days left ....

On wednesday i started my first graded project.
3rd Hand Project
To be true to myself i was very afraid
I afraid i will make a mistake
Afraid that i won't get good grade
Many of classmates have ruined their workpiece

I made a couple of minor mistake but i was able to ammend them
2 more days left to complete this project
Hopefully i can make it
Focus on work and i guess, things will go will the next 2 days

Oh yeah, yesterday was AE4 (Aerospace Engineering class 4 -that my class) class BBQ
It was at pasir ris park pit 55
I have lots of fun
From card games(black jack and heart attack), to cooking the food, to creating a alumium bowl to put the staty sauce even puting the bowl into a leak test.
The best of all was creating our own olympic torch from a row of newspaper
Suppose to be playing wacko with it but put a group of engineer and a box of fire starter you get a olymipc torch

One thing i realise was my class can't run away from things we learn, during lunch break, on our way home and even at yesterday BBQ, we were applying everything we are learning into our daily life.

Ok, that all for now.
Shall blog again when i am free...
Revision here i come ...

14/07/08: Status Report

2008-07-14T18:06:00.004+08:00

I change my blog template to some brighter
I guess life has been very dull and black lately
Perhaps this is the first step to looking on the bright sight of life

A reminder to myself:
这个世界上就算没人关心我，
没人理会我，
没人疼我也没关系
重要的是我关心自己
我不要放弃自己

Last friday was Awards For Excellence Presentaion Cermony,
And i fall into the Top Student Category
Another piece of paper to beautify my portfolio

Day 64 of Lufthansa Technical Training
Exam are in october
Approx 3 months to go
I got pull my sock up and start mugging harder

Life basically revolve around the following things:

TRAINING STUDY REVISION
WORK RUN BADMINTON
OCCASICALLY SQUASH

*Insterestingly sleep is not on the list, haha*

21/06/08: Status Report

2008-06-21T08:24:00.004+08:00

Very long never blog...
So just take some time to blog...

Yesterday was Day 48 of LTT Training...
So i have 77 Days left
Training been okay, learning new things everyday
Also got to know i achieve my Junior Director List Award.
But i am not very happy, i am not sure why.
Perhaps because i do nothing but study and work lately.

Driving lesson is also in process as well
Hopefully i can finish my subjects soon...

Sleep time is to the minimum, basically 4-5hrs everynight
Starting to wonder where to look for energy to battle everything
Have to find energy to start storing the information in my head

What i could is that the days ahead is not easy to walk.
Will i survive?
Will I achieve what i want?
Will i battle the monster?
O.o

2008-06-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

The more I see the less I know
The more I want to let it go...

23/05/08: Status Report

2008-05-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

4 days to FTT ...
6 days to Quiz 2 ...

A normal day would basically start at 5.30 AM
And would end at about 1 - 2 am
This was my life for the past 1 month that i didn't post
And it will be even more hectic in the days to come

There is this flu/cold virus spreading in my class
Doing my best to NOT catch it
I can't afford to fall sick now, I really can't

When i was young, i couldn't sleep at night
Because I thought there was a monster in my closet
But there wasn't anything in my closet but fear
And fear wasn't real
It wasn't make of anything
It was just air , not even that
I just have to face it
I just have to open that door and the monster would disappear

In my current situation,
I face my fear, and open that door
And there's a hundred more doors behind it
And the monster that are hiding behind them are all real

What i am unsure is will i survive till i open the last door
What if the monster got me
Took away all my strenght and energy
I guess the outcome will be indesirable

LTT Day 2

2008-04-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

Day 2
Much more motivated to do filing today
(Guess is the effect of a good swim last night)
Learn a lot today
Learn how file evenly today, how to use a hack saw
How to do centre punches. etc.

I would say I am about 70% done on my work piece
Tomorrow will be the last day to work on my U-block
Sort of afraid I can’t finish it on time
Guess tomorrow we will know

Countdown: 123 days left

LTT Day 1

2008-04-14T18:58:00.003+08:00

Day 1 of Lufthansa Technical Training
Training is everyday from 0830hrs to 1615hrs

Lots of things to learn
Theory consist of a 6 inch course notes we have study
Practical consist of a series of assignments and project
Haiz!

Spend today filing a U-block (basically a metal block)
Due to my height, the workbench is too high
Having some difficulties filing
Hopefully tomorrow will be better
Feeling tired today …

Countdown: 124 days left

Self Reflective Entry

2008-04-10T14:55:00.001+08:00

Ever since holidays start, things have been going upside down and haywire. I was busy with Work, NCC, Driving Lesson, etc. Don’t really even have time for myself.

Now on leave so not working till school starts, not really busy with NCC, not busy with studies yet, it certainly gives me time to ponder, reflect and plan, before school starts and the hectic schedule begins.

Was thinking lately why I have been working so hard over my holidays. It is all because of money, it is essential for anyone survival. Money, I guess everyone get troubled over it from time to time.

Then I thought about NCC. I no longer felt the satisfaction after conducting a unit training even when I know I have taught them well. Next lesson when they come back they will forget most of the things. My officers commented that the cadet’s information retention level is low hence they forgot what is taught. However on the other hand, I felt perhaps the teaching methods are wrong. Or maybe they are simply not interested and were force to attend training.

With Lufthansa Technical Training (LTT) commencing on Monday, I would say I will be missing in action (MIA) for a long period of time in NCC. Perhaps when I am back, more things would have change and I have no choice but to accept the things that have transform.

Next week, i will start my 3rd and last year at TP. Last semester GPA was 3.94, a drop of 0.01. The goal now is to maintain the 3.94 GPA till I graduate. It is going to be hard work no one ever told me it was easy.

3 days of holidays left